21 May 2006
used to be an atheist till I realized I was God.”
A set of cues, a channel of perception corroborates the identity of my sentient self with my physical body. I am well-trained to keep my attention in that channel. I forget my dreams on waking, and I regard my intuitions with skepticism. I discipline myself to base decisions on ‘reality’, i.e., on physical perceptions and reason.
But I retain a vestigial awareness of another channel, another reality, another gestalt I can remember from childhood relishing a sensation of absurdity when I focused in just the right way on the thesis that “I am Josh”. It was easier then for me to locate the inner conviction that I am more objective than that, something more like the universal observer than the will within the corpus.
So which is the reality and which is the illusion? Am I this highly-evolved system of organic molecules far from equilibrium? Or am I the weltgeist?
Where do I want to focus my
20 May 2006
“Conviction brings a silent, indefinable beauty into faces made of the commonest human clay; the devout worshiper at any shrine reflects something of its golden glow, even as the glory of a noble love shines like a beacon from a lover’s face”
de Balzac, born this day in 1799
19 May 2006
“He who every
morning plans the transaction of the day and follows out that plan, carries
a thread that will guide him through the maze of the most busy life. But
where no plan is laid, where the disposal of time is surrendered merely to
the chance of incidence, chaos will soon reign.
“Twenty years from now you will be more
disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you
did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the
trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”
“Creativity arises out of the
tension between spontaneity and limitations, the latter (like the river
banks) forcing the spontaneity into the various forms which are essential to
the work of art or poem.”
“Our whole life is an
attempt to discover when our spontaneity is whimsical, sentimental
irresponsibility and when it is a valid expression of our deepest desires
18 May 2006
17 May 2006
“Nearly all the best things that came to me in life have been unexpected, unplanned by me.”
16 May 2006
15 May 2006
“After Adam and Eve have eaten of the ‘tree of knowledge of good and evil’…after they have become human by having emancipated themselves from the original animal harmony with nature…they saw ‘that they were naked – and they were ashamed’. Should we assume that a myth as old and elementary as this has the prudish morals of the nineteenth century outlook, and that the important point…is the embarrassment that their genitals were visible? This can hardly be so, and by understanding the story in a Victorian spirit, we miss the main point, which seems to be the following: after man and woman have become aware of themselves and of each other, they are aware of their separateness…of their different sexes. But while recognizing their separateness they remain strangers, because they have not yet learned to love each other (as is also made very clear by the fact that Adam defends himself by blaming Eve, rather than by trying to defend her). The awareness of human separation, without reunion by love – is the source of shame. It is at the same time the source of guilt and anxiety. The deepest need of man, then, is the need to overcome his separateness, to leave the prison of his aloneness.”